On May 2, Junior Seau put a gun to his chest and ended his life. It really affected me because right before his retirement from the NFL I saw the guy at Downtown Disney with his wife and three kids. He was laughing with his daughter, chasing his son and holding his wife’s hand.
And now he’s dead. Tragic!
Junior was a brute of a linebacker in the NFL! I always loved his beady eyes beneath his helmet and how intimidating he must have been to quarterbacks. He was 10-years All-Pro and often held the highest number of quarterback sacs in the league. He had a career total of 155 tackles with 16 alone in the 1994 AFC Championship game. He still holds team records on the Chargers.
After his retirement in 2010, he ran a successful restaurant in Mission Viejo; had a new, exciting clothing line with a bright future. And then something snapped. His wife found him dead, alone in his house at 10:00 in the morning. So sad!
What deep despair or thick darkness could cause someone to do such a thing? Or perhaps the better question is, what could prevent it.
Before we get all huffy and judgmental, we would do well to recognize our own vulnerability and capacity to self-destruct. I see it happen all the time. The weapon of choice may not be a gun but a mistress or a bottle or even a computer screen. Some people commit suicide over a longer period and do it right in front of their children. The results are worse than doing it quickly. So what’s the answer?
You already know that I’m gonna say, huh? Jesus is the answer. And that’s because He is! But sometimes, even godly, powerful people get so discouraged and so weary that death seems more attractive than living. Paul thought so in 2 Corinthians 1:8. So did Job! King David never put a sword through his own heart, but at one dark moment, he wished someone would have! Read about it in 1 Samuel 21.
Nothing can prevent dark moments. We all have them. King David called it, “Walking through the valley of the shadow of death.” Have you been there? I’m gonna talk about it this Sunday and lead you through a psalm that is the template for healthy thinking during dark moments. The psalm is… well, you’ll have to come listen. I’ll tell you a truth story though right now.
John Huss knew he was going to die, and in the worst way- burned at the stake. His crime? He love Jesus and spoke the truth against a corrupt religious system. With his own hand he wrote about his darkest moments in a prison pit. Ocean water splashed through an air hole and wet his straw that rotted beneath him. He often had to lay down in his own excrement until the water washed it away. It took six months for his clothes to rot off his body. They were replaced by a biting rash and stinging blistered. His teeth loosened and fell out of his mouth and his fingernails grew inward because he was no longer able to bite them. His beard was full of parasites that bored beneath his skin and tortured him continually. He had grown so sick and weak they had to carry him to his place of execution. His life was taken on July 6, 1415.
“Okay, okay… he suffered.” you say. “So, what’s the point?”
He could have easily saved his life by recanting his beliefs. But instead, he was thankful for the loving embrace of God. He never took his eyes off of Jesus. He chose not to be woeful. John Huss was gratified with God, hopeful and forward-looking to heaven. He abandoned himself in the all-encompassing presence of God.
If Downtown Disney, a large income, a big house, a buff appearance, a loving family or an impressive NFL career is all people have or hope for, no wonder more and more people are snapping. Yes, the answer is Jesus, simple but true!

